The Future.

Assalamualaikum. Peace be upon you.
Alhamdulillah, my life has been great so far.
Actually, I really want to pursue my study in oversea.
Um I have a lot to say. It will probably take one day to only write this. Hahaha. I'm grateful enough with what I have now. Indeed, I am. As a muslim, I want to improve myself to be a better servant to God. Like hijrah. I'm still learning, and studying. I know, it's impossible for me to learn everything in a short of a time. I have to keep persevering and have faith. There are many things that I dunno yet. Sigh. I wanna change my dress-code. Think I'll have to buy some new clothes haha. Exciting but the thing is I'm a little bit lazy when it comes to shopping. I'm picky and I really need to survey on what top that is nice and super duper comfortable. Plus, I hate it when the sales girl are trying to greet me. Leave me alone! Just ignore me, please. I have to change the way I dress myself up. Am trying oh yeah.

Okay as I said before, I wanted to study in oversea.
I really want to. But I've only got 5 A's in SPM. But I'm not feeling sad or any other feelings that people have when they're down. I'm just thankful cause I've expected the worst. Hik. So here's the problem. I know my result is not qualified to get any scholarships. I'm in a dilemma. If I register for matriculation, I have the chance of getting a scholarship but I must achieve 4 flat. Yeah, I know it's tough, man. And it's way too risky, I guess. Because if I can't survive, I might have a darker future. I dunno. I really have to work hard for this. I know I can do it. Yeah! I can, I can be anything that I want. I can be a champion! Need to study hard smart. Haha. Yeah, I'll do it for the sake of Allah swt. For my brighter future, for my future husband! Eh? Hahaha. I believe that I can. I won't let myself down. Jyeah! :D

And one more thing, I have to avoid from falling in love with someone cause it's actually making me detached from the reality. Making me more weird. It's quite burdening sometimes when you are always thinking of someone. Trust me, I've experienced that before even though he's only my ex-crush. I need to focus on my future, I don't have time and money ( if I'm in love lol ) to waste. And in the future, I might soon meet my future husband. The only man that should be loved excluding my father and bro. So I guess, I'll just wait while I'm preparing for a brighter future. Jyeah! :D