Bismillahirahmannirrahim.
To whoever you are, I don't know why are you reading this and I don't think that you will understand what I'm about to say. Because I doubt you'll feel the same way I feel. To be frank, I can't sleep even though it's already 4.08 am. My eyes often refuse to close as usual. Sad. Right now, I'm feeling nothing. I mean it's actually hard for me to describe what kind of situation I have here but that's the only word I know to use. Lol. I know, maybe you're thinking that you've felt this way before, but I don't think so man. Because it is the feeling where I can't even describe it to myself. Ugh. Sigh. Ye know, sometimes despite of being happy, I feel sad and gloomy. Though I laugh cheerfully, my heart feels the opposite way to how I've acted. Just because pretending that I'm physically happy is doable, it doesn't mean that I'm actually feeling great. I just play the role of a character. Lol. Yeah, I laugh but argh I dunno. Like something is trying to knock me down again. Giving me headache and sickness. I loathe it. It feels like I'm lacking something. Something that is intangible.
Mind torturing thoughts.
"Too much questions were in my mind. Since the day where I don't even remember how it was all started. It kept reaching up day by day but only a few were solved. The others remain clueless."
Hafta find lots of knowledge yeah since I lack it. Lol. I have to be more 'sabr' in order to get it. Ameen Ya Rabb.
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