I will stand by you

Take me into your darkest hour baby

I will never desert you

Won't let nobody hurts you

I'll stand by you

live 

Every heart has a story to tell.

"I believe that tomorrow is another day, and I believe in miracles"

Audrey Hepburn                           

I am not good enough, but I'm trying to improve myself, to become a better person.
Much better than before. I want to make a change, to seek for justice and be one of those great people. Am looking forward to become a humanitarian someday, it takes time and effort and I know I am still far from that goal, but I believe that nothing is impossible. We have God, we have the capability. Learning and pursuing my studies are my jihad, my ride to success. I believe - 

Deserted

I feel very lonely. I think I have made a huge mistake, yeah I should've not  initiated a conversation with anybody. I hate it, it reminds me of those days. I do not like goodbyes but to be left without a word is more painful. It is. In fact, it is the worst thing that someone can ever do. This thing bothers me until now. I still keep on thinking about it. I regret what I have done. I have learnt  to be more specific to what I want and just focus on my dreams. I will only chase my dreams.

Lost.

    

As I closed my eyes, my fear grew. I was lost in my own world, where I could not find my way out. Where darkness blinded my vision, hardened my heart and stole my soul. There was no way out. It was a long journey. My feet were running, but soon I realized that I was still there, statically standing. Confused. Worried. Something kept on approaching me, and I could not resist it. It had a habit of coming back. At anytime it wish to bother me, it would loom from out of nowhere. I could always run but I would not be out of this misery. And it stayed mystery.

A heart story

           It was a chance offered by her but to me it was as though she forced me to decide or maybe I was wrong. I ran into judgement and that gave me a space to make excuses. Maybe it was true that sometimes, first impression could be misleading. But to be frank, that kind of approach was hardly acceptable by me.

All I wanted to say was that my heart was not ready for anything like this. I hate creating an unnecessary relationship with strangers. It won't be meaningful if our relationship were not based on something stronger. We met, knew each other, we would create memories and then we'd say good bye. The end. That was it.

And maybe we have never realized this, or you, perhaps, have never realized this. Because for years, I've been observing and watching or experiencing the same situation. Yes, indeed I will never forget the one that I love and the one that I want to love and who I wish I'll meet and beloved. I keep on dreaming.

The longer you keep your pain all inside, you fear will gradually grow in your heart. You fear that your love ones won't be coming back to you. Just like nightmares.

Dilemma

I am just disappointed right now. I cannot stand this anymore, but I never regret of what has happened. I loathe facing with dilemmas just because I have to or I must make a decision that I'm not even sure if it's the right thing to do. The sad thing is you gotta do it. You can neither avoid it nor ignore it. O Allah, I am torn apart inside. Hhm but soon I realize that Allah SWT won't put you in difficulties that you cannot handle, right? O Allah, show me Your mercy, make me strong in preparing for whatever comes next.

“Remember that the Help of Allah is obtained with patience, and relief emerges after distress, prosperity follows adversity, and hardship is followed by ease”

– Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him.

[Tirmidhi (Hasan Sahih)]

A du'a for me!

Salam everyone! :)
Hi, it's been a long time, right? I just felt that I wasn't ready to share anything on this blog before but now, I think it is about time for me to kinda tell something. TEHEE. Alhamdulillah, I've been short-listed for tomorrow's interview. All praises belongs to Allah alone! :D Hihi it is my second SLP's interview. Please, just make du'a that Allah will ease everything for me. I will update my entry from time to time, soon inshaallah. Thank you. Bye!

Life

Yeah, life has so much to offer. Love, faith, friendship and happiness.

Alhamdulillah! :)